Oh boy, what have I got myself trapped into. It’s a vicious cycle.
Flashback to 5 months ago:
Weekdays: Get out of bed around 7 am. Be at work around 7:45. Get back home around 10:00 pm. (Had a 2 hour lunch break in between)
Weekends: Nag about my social life—or the lack of it
Flashback to 4 months ago:
I see the signs, I hear the rumors. It’s gonna end. My department is gonna close down soon.
Finally I can get my social life back to order.
Soon my working hours were cut back to a humanitarian level of 8!!
Me, happy and bouncy. I finally got around to seeing Kuwait during the day time on a weekday.
Flashback to 3 months ago:
Gradually my working hours is reduced to zero. Yep, for more than 1 month I had no classes, no projects, no presentations, and no proposals to write. As my workload was reduced, my depression grew.
Oh, idle, idle mind.
An idle mind is a dangerous thing.
I felt unwanted, useless, and unchallenged.
With a lot of time on my hands, I started to over analysis everything, pick on people, be more sensitive than usual. But one thing I was not, was moody. I only had 1 mood I wanted to be left alone.
And so I resigned. Without even searching for a new job first, let alone finding one. I didn’t care. I just had to get out of that environment.
I started my new job 3 weeks ago. I work here 8 hours a day, but I still go to my old company to finish off some classes in the evening for 3 hours. So I now work 11 hours a day again.
And I am happy.
And I laugh again
I miss my own laughter.
So if I work a lot, I nag; if I don’t, I become depressed. Am I fool? Maybe, but a happy fool 😀
PS. I am posting this in the middle of the day coz I finished a presentation a week before my deadline. And it’s too hot to go out so I thought I would blog away….